DO YOU REALLY THINK I MAINTAIN THIS FOR MY OWN GOOD

For all the weeks or months that no one come here, no post I make, no read, no write - this blog hungrier. Now it feed finally.

My friend come to this place, make writing. It happen before. It happen now and then. Never before, it happen like this.

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOkay. Believe or not, I have a new friend. It is not quite a monkey on my back. Let us say, it is sort of like a cricket. But this cricket started very small (chirping very equally spaced out), but this cricket has grown into somewhat of a more noticeable nuisance (chirping becoming slightly more constant, frequency rising). Or pleasance? Or both? Who can tell.

Either way, it is clear that this cricket's purpose is to keep me from reading about the monkey. I think the monkey was last noted to be 35 pounds on the back of some fictional character. Doesn't the cricket realize it is only a sad mimicking act of the monkey it is keeping me from? Why won't it let me reach the monkey?

I don't, after all, really know if I do want to reach the monkey. I think it is the sort of thing where, if I was to come into contact with said monkey, it would automatically be latched onto my back. Would I have a choice to remove it? No, I think at that point, I might lose all control. I think that at that point, it would no longer be up to me. I think at that point, I would be offering free "piggy back rides" to any "creature" that wanted to latch itself onto me.

Of course, from an immature standpoint, these would all be positive musings. But I am not sure.

Now, to briefly introduce a third "creature." It has been in transit for the past few days. Via the air. Then delays. This creature is also attached to another entity. Another leeching creature, if you will. But it's been at it for much longer than the small cricket on my back...dare I say it's grown even to something of a bear? Can a bear rest on one's back?

Oh, out of control, I know.

- "Your Confidant"